Disappointment.........

Disappointment is what i am having now. After being through many probs, this is what i get in returned. You just don't understand what i want. Well, i do think that you don't even know what i want. Most important is that, you doesn't seen it as a prob. No matter how hard i tried to explain it, you have yet to get it. Why??? This is the question that keep popping out from my mine. I have try my very best to coop with you, tolerate you and follow you. I do not know how long i have been doing this and seriously i do not know how long i can do this anymore. But one thing for sure if that day come, it will gonna be a very BAD day for both of us. I pray hard to You Lord, please don't let this happen. Please!!! At least, not at this moment. Not now.....

Down ......

Dear Heavenly Father,

I seriously really really down since yesterday. You know what is going on ...... You know the reason for this ..... You know how I really felt right now ..... And most important of all, You have the way to solved it ....

And, I can only for pray hard for it ...... Coz, You are the only one that I can count on now. You are the only place that I can seek for advised. You are the only comfort that I have right now. And most important of all, You are there for me.

Heavenly Father,

You are the best that I am having now. No one like You, that will consoled me for this point of time. No one like You, that will shed my tears away. I need a place to hide away from the world. I need You - Heavenly Father.

I had no one to talk to ..... I am seeking for advised ...... I need love to shower upon me .....

All this, I can only get it from You - Heavenly Father.

For You are the only one I have right now. For You are the only one Who will never abandon me for who I am.

Thank You Heavenly Father, Thank you.

Ku ingatkan ......

Ku ingatkan Kau akan berada di sisi Ku ......

Ku ingatkan Kau akan menolong tanpa apa jua ........

Ku ingatkan Kau akan menghulurkan tangan untuk menolong Ku ........

Ku ingatkan Kau akan mengharungi apa jua masalah Ku hadapi .......

Ku ingatkan .......

Ku ingatkan Kau lah orang yang Ku boleh harapkan......

Ku ingatkan Kau lah orang yang Ku boleh menganjakkan kaki bersama ke gerbang pintu Kebahagiaan.....

Ku ingatkan Kau lah orang yang Ku boleh mencurahkan segala-gala masalah yang Ku hadapi......

Ku ingatkan Kau lah orang yang Ku inginkan selama ini........

Ku ingatkan .......

Hati Ku yang ingatkan kesemua ini cuma Ku ingatkan .....

Hati Ku yang ingatkan ke pintu gerbang kebahagiaan cuma Ku boleh mimpikan ......

Hati Ku yang ingatkan Kau akan berada di sana untuk Ku tidak akan Ku kenangkan ......

Biarlah kesemua ini Ku pendamkan di dalam hati Ku ......

Biarlah kesemua ini Kau tidak tahu ......

Biarlah kesemua ini Ku mencari jalan penyelesaian tanpa kehadiran Mu ......

Biarlah .......

Loving me...

I can see him,

Standing right there in front of me,

Expecting me to be there with him,

And telling me he can’t wait to see me....

He will hug n kiss me,

He will take care of me,

And he promise that he will always be there for me….

Telling me his certainty of loving me,

That he may walk the rest of his path happily,

Telling me is his path of loving me,

That he wants to walk through it with me forever....

And telling me he feels the peace of loving me,

That it will be his quiet satisfaction,

That he will made me happy,

And LOVE me well......

Apr 1,08 ~ Current update

Hahaha............ was abandoning this blog for quite some time. Poor blog.... No worries, I am bbbbAAAccccckkKKK!!!! =) loll So first thing first, I need to feed this blog with what I am up to from the day I left this blog till the current up to date things. Ready blog??? hehe... Apr 1 ~ 26, 2008 Working life at HEM is a NIGHTMARE. The bloody FC there is damn bossy. She will check on you every single minute on what you are up to. WTH...... Yet this is not the best part, the best part is I am actually becoming her PA. I have been told to washed her cups N cleared off her out tray every morning. WTH..... She even asked me to stayed back even I have nothing to do. and with bunch of other things!!! Seriously, I really beh tahan with her..... So I quit!!! Apr 28, 08 ~ Current Working life with FJB is almost the same like HEM. Being working with FJB for a year plus. I have learned allots from this com... I have learned on how much I need to protect myself from been bully amongst your own team mates. I have learned on how to stay strong while your own superior pretended to know nothing and defending you from others. I have learned on how to stand out from the messed by others throwing on me. ************************************************************************************* I believe, He is molding me from all this to be a better person. I believe, He is telling me not to give up with this job. I believe, He is promoting me to another level of life with all this. N I believe He is telling me need not to be afraid from all this.... And I heard Him say :~

I am here with you....... Lead n guiding you through..... Don't be afraid, leave it to Me....... I will hold your hands through all this..... Have faith with Me.... I will surely be here with you gone through this...... Just stay with Me.......=)

so BLEEESSSEEEEDDDDDDDD(m@r'08)

Well is Mar'08 already. Time just flies away very fast. Few things had happen this week. First of all is that I got a job offer by this Hotel Equatorial Management, as an Accounts Assistant. I was quite nervous actually when I went for the interview. I prayed to GOD for HIS wisdom and favor. Thank GOD, HE answers my prayer. Hahaha...... It didnt stop there, the HR manager immediately confirm me at the end of the interview. Plus with a HIGHER pay. OMG, cant believed. I AM SO BLESSSSSEEEEEDDDDDDDD!!!!!! Actually, another company was quite keen to take me in. But too bad they only called me up after my interview with HEM. Well, this company is quite good actually. Even though is quite a small company, but I having lots of room to improve my accounting knowledge there. But of course the pay they offer is RM200 lower. Plus that place is not convenient for me to get any public transport. But is NEAR church and care group..... Haiz!!! Yet HEM is not that good as well. All though this place is quite convenient for me to travel from home to workplace but it is very far from church and care group. Another thing is that I have to work half a day on Saturday. And most importantly of all NO full set accounts for me to learn. Haizz.......... Anyway, I believed and trusted HIM that HE will provide me the BEST. As pastor Joshua said so. Haahahaha...... Last but not least, of course I would like to thank HIM for answering my prayer and blessed me that well. Thank you LORD. Amen.......

my dearest sis......

Dear sis, If you are reading this blog, I would like to let you know that you are NOT ALONE. I truly know how the way you feel and the sadness that you going through now. For I have gone through it myself. I know you tried your very BEST to kept your feeling from others. But not me..... I can see and I can feel all the pain in your heart. And I understand that no matter how we tried to console you yet it won’t ease the pain in your heart. I know your leaving is the only way that you can run away from all this. But I would like to let you know that no matter, I will be there for you. A shoulder for you to lean on to shear your tear. A hug from me to warm you down. A smile from me to make you feel better. A joked from me to cheer you up. And most important of our sisterly love will be strongly there for you to keep you going. But then the love from GOD is the most powerful weapons and shield for you and me to go through everything. For where ever HIS love is there will be us.......... together. Love you, ~mOus!e~