speechless.........

I was a bit sad and angry last nite..................... I reached home last nite at 8.30pm. The first thing I notice when I enter my room is that my towel is on the floor n the study table was so messy.............. I thought the maid just came today to clean up!!!! N what is all this............ My goodness!!!! I was sharing the room will my cousin brother daugther. She is 13 this year, n she dun wanna know a single things of how to keep the room CLEAN n TIDY!!!! Every time I asked her to clean up her messed all she will said she will do it later this n that....... the most fucking RUDE things she ever told me once is that "Why you want to bother....... this is my father's house. N this is MY ROOOOOOOMMMMMMMM. Is up to me to clean it up o not.........." I really can’t imagine how her house would look like in the future............. but I am pretty sure of 1 thing, that her mother-in-law will going to be very busy to clearing up her mess for her. N her husband to be will definitely regret to marry her. She saw my towel is on the floor, n she can IGNORE it n dun pick it up!!!!! What kind of attitude is this????? N the worse thing is, my auntie knows about it n she is siding her. I am really speechless........ Every time when she need me to help up she will always said "Even though it is not your stuff you still have to help up. Even if you saw something on the floor pick it up n put it back. Dun be selfish......" Okay, n what is this now...... She is helping by not picking up the things........ n this is not the first time yet it wun be last either. Sometimes, I feel really regret to move back in into this house...... When they need me I am important. But when they dun, I am just a pieces of shit to them. Seriously, I really don’t know how far I can stand all this.........

January 17, 2008

Kinda wake up a bit early today ...... around 5+ in morning. Having a night out w bros and sis in Christ last nite. Try to get some presents to those January babies. Thank you LORD for giving us some idea to get those presents. Is kinda expensive tho those presents. But anyway, i dun mind to chip in more. Later, we all went to ss2 "wai sik kai" (sorry if it sound weird, i dun really know pinyin for Chinese). Reach home around 11.30pm. Was a bit "ng song" with my auntie . Get to know that she is actually scolding me for going out straight after work. Haiz...... i really dun know what to say..... when i am around in the house no 1 actually seem to appreciate my presence. When i am not around they are asking all sort of question ~ "where she go? ..... What she doing outside?....." Is not that i dun know that they do care for me. But is that if you really wanna know why dun you ask me directly. why do you all have to ask all kind of questions when i am not around? Is that really that difficult for you all to ask me directly? ............ Whatever, I wanna thank ET for the drink and once again fetching me home all the way from PJ to Cheras. Tho he stay at BU, and it takes 20mins per trip, he still fetch me home. Thank you very much........thank you for your blessing. Well is need to start work already, got to go....... so long for now. May GOD's favor surrounds us. Amen........

s@d but h@ppy @ the same time...........

Was been shock by my fren nick at msn this morning. ~"Im single n available again"~ I was like ~ "wat the ....". Both of them seem okay no problem only @ the last meet up.... which is celebrating my belated birthday. Now juz a month plus both of them break up. I was kinda sad n shock to hear about this Anyway, beside the sad news i got another message from my beloved sis in christ for some brain exercise question early in the morning before work started. Kind of tricky.... but anyhow I manage to solved it. Tat means I am FULLY awaken. Not like Chris & ET ..... both blur blur fellow..... =P Since yesterday both of them non stop bullying me.... dunno why???? but kinda funny.... by bullying from them. Hei, hei, hei I am not insane but juz kinda funny with the way they bully me. I was laughing with wat they said ..... hhahahaa.... Well, have to continue with my work already. More on next time. Chaaaaoooozzz...... ~~~~~~"h@pPy wOrk!ng"~~~~~~

1st Blog of mOus!e.......

This is my 1st blog here. Let’s start it with some intro. about me. I'm mousie ..... a 23yrs old young woman. Busy seeking GOD's will n of course my life. I'm juz an ordinary young woman (i wish i am so my life wouldnt be that miserable). Others may seem that I’m a happy go lucky, friendly, crazy n bubbling girl. Can join in n talk all sort of things from A~Z. But deep down in me I went through alotz of things which no one will ever believe. Let me tell u a story. N here goes my story ...... Back then in Nov 1984, in Hospital Besar Ipoh, Perak, a baby girl was born to a woman who does not married to a man officially. This baby girl surname was name under this man without knowing if he is her biological father. She was then staying with her so call mother in the first 2 months. But was ended up staying with her so call father elder sister then. Reason ~ her so call mother mother made she herself a deal with the "Ah Long"....... She grew up in a world, which she do not get love, respect n was been curse each n everyday. Since small she have been push around from 1 relatives to another. By the time she grew older, this little girl always wonders why she was been mistreated. But somehow she gets to know all the answers from her auntie. All her questions n wonder have been answer........ The pains the feelings and the sorrow at that that moment she will never forget. From that days onwards she tried n tried n tried her very best to stay STRONG n TOUGH to go on with her life. Till one day, she met this special one. He changes her life. She thought he love her. But all she get is lies n lies n more lies ...... n her life is back to square one. She even lives her life in fear for the hitting from this special one. Everyone around her asked her to leave this special one for he does not deserve my love to him. But she is rather stupid o what ever it is she stays on with this special one. And one day, she only knew that she herself to this special one is just a friend ....... a NORMAL friend!!!! Despite going all the up and down with this special one........ All she hopes is just a SIMPLE RECOGNATION from this special one(she never gets any from her family members).................. She turns to her senior colleague for advised and yet this senior colleague was telling her the same things ~ "leave him n start life anew". This senior colleague then brings her to church. Introduced someone which she does have never thought off..... Hallelujah!!!! Because of HIM this girl still stay STRONG n TOUGH...... Because of HIM this girl start her life ANEW....... Because of HIM this girl know no matter what happen, she still have HIM in her life to go through all the things.......... N because of HIM this girl know HE WILL ALWAYS LOVE her ........ Thank you LORD!!! Thank you very much.......... AMEN!!!